16 And it came to pass that I, Nephi, being exceedingly young, nevertheless being large in stature, and also having great desires to know of the mysteries of God, wherefore, I did cry unto the Lord; and behold he did visit me, and did soften my heart that I did believe all the words which had been spoken by my father; wherefore, I did not rebel against him like unto my brothers.
When Nephi learned that the family had been commanded to leave Jerusalem and travel into the wilderness, his natural reaction was likely very similar to that of his brothers. It meant abandoning his plans. It meant giving up conveniences and living more modestly. It probably meant giving up friends, a schedule he was used to, and activities he enjoyed. He says that the reason he didn’t rebel like his brothers is because he prayed and the Lord softened his heart.
Some of the most difficult and most important prayers we may ever offer will sound something like this: “Heavenly Father, I know what I need to do, but I don’t want to do it. Please help me.” This is what it means to wrestle in prayer or to struggle in the Spirit (Enos 1:2, 10). He can and will help us when we pray to Him with that kind of faith and humility.
Today, I will look for areas of dissonance between my natural inclinations and what I know I should do. I will follow Nephi’s example and ask the Lord to help me “school my feelings.” (Hymn 336)