Alma 10:5-6 I Knew…Yet I Would Not Know

5 Nevertheless, after all this, I never have known much of the ways of the Lord, and his mysteries and marvelous power. I said I never had known much of these things; but behold, I mistake, for I have seen much of his mysteries and his marvelous power; yea, even in the preservation of the lives of this people.
6 Nevertheless, I did harden my heart, for I was called many times and I would not hear; therefore I knew concerning these things, yet I would not know; therefore I went on rebelling against God, in the wickedness of my heart, even until the fourth day of this seventh month, which is in the tenth year of the reign of the judges.
(Alma 10:5-6)

How can it be that he “knew” and yet he “would not know?”  Something about that phrase rings true, in spite of the superficial contradiction. Like Korihor, who “always knew that there was a God,” yet managed to convince himself it was not true, we can find ourselves in a position of willful ignorance.
Amulek’s statement suggests that knowing is an act of will, and that we can, through our own lethargy or disinterest, fail to observe and comprehend truths which should be obvious to us from our own experience. 
One way that this happens is when we become too comfortable.  When we are educated or wealthy or have other worldly advantages, we can come to rely too much on our own abilities and on our habitual ways of solving problems.  We fail to interact openly and honestly with the world around us, and we miss some of the richness of life because we are too set in our ways to recognize it. 
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